I have been having a lot of heart ache over blogging, etc., lately... for a while now.
As many I'm sure, there are a lot of things that I would like to do more and some things that I feel guilty about not doing more.
I want to be the best mommy to our littles, a great and better wifey to my incredible Hubby, I want to read scripture more, pray for more people more, serve more, boldly tell people about God and what Jesus has done for us more, and selfish things as well like have more playdates/groups, keep up with blogging (ours and yours) and everyone's happenings.
But for me. Right now. Blog, twitter, Facebook, Instagram everyday? I can't. Even every week or month sometimes. I can't.
On one hand, I feel guilty about it. I can't keep up with everybody how I'd love to. I don't want new friends or old friends to think that I am not keeping up on purpose. I do not think for a minute that our life or happenings are more important than ANYbody elses. I love to rejoice with everyone's happy things, be there to pray during the tough things, laugh during the silly things, and know what you had for lunch or dinner ;).
The other side is that I feel guilty because if I am doing too much, then it takes energy or time away from my little fam. And that's just me, I know others it may not effect like that, which is perfectly fine. :)
There are other things about it all that can be stressful too. But we won't get into that right now. :)
I love blogging and all of these others apps because I love keeping up with family and friends. It is fun and wonderful that we can be part of each other's days and lives without being in the same house, store, state, or even country.
I love blogging for our family. Tracking the fun memories, the silly things that happen, all of the adventures we go through together and documenting the things He is teaching us. I have always chosen to blog about the happy, big things that we are going through, and some struggles as well. My... our... desire is that our littles can come back and read great memories, things He has taught us. For us that does not include the nitty gritty things that could potentially be embarrassing for them or that would make them feel anything less than loved.
I have contemplated shutting down the blog because I have been so discouraged. I started our blog in 2007 to update family and friends on our first pregnancy/complications, with BabyBoy. Then it was exciting and wonderful meeting new friends and really getting to know and keep up with new and old friends.
I love these ways to connect, keep up, see pics, hear stories, give and receive feedback, so critical to us as women but as moms, wives, and followers of Him. I always felt that after I was in this amazing network of ladies that no matter where we lived or if we had just moved, or if I've been in the house for a looong time and could so easily feel isolated, I would never feel alone because of this wonderful community.
Unfortunately, I have not felt like that for a while now and especially lately.
That is why I have asked questions like have I done something wrong? Said something wrong? If I am too positive or only record the happy moments of our family, well that is ok with me. If I have been offensive in any way, I want to be told. And I know I am faaaairly sensitive about it sometimes. ;) But it is because I care about you and our friendships mean so much to me.
Apologize for blogging about positive, happy things in our lives. I can't.
Apologize for not being witty, poetic, fashionable, or anything enough. I can't.
Apologize for posting a lot lately about our new adventures in homeschooling or our adoption journey. I can't.
I can't apologize for what I post about because it is what is important to our family. And when I say I, that means, we, because Hubby reads/edits every single post before it gets published. :)
I want to apologize for not being able to keep up with everybody on social media as much recently. But I can't. I want to read and comment, I just can't as often right now. My people need my whole me. And if blogging, etc., becomes stressful for me, it isn't fair to my people.
I appreciate all of you loving and supportive peoples even though I haven't been able to keep up as much for a lil' while now! 'Tis a season for us. I hope you can forgive me. I love following everyone's journey's, learning from each other, and just having fun together while we try to serve our amazing God more everyday.
I am going to keep blogging.
I am going to continue to blog about what is important to our family.
I am thankful for you friends, new and old, who continue to read, and say hi. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. I appreciate you. So much.